The Meaning of It All
by ANN ULRICH MILLER
© 2016 (all rights reserved)
An article from the April 2016 issue of THE STAR BEACON.
Solar Eclipse Shift
Something happened during the
recent solar eclipse in early March -- a kind of "shift" which has changed the
course of my life -- for the better.
My friends know that for years Doug
and I have been searching for our "home." Seven years ago, I moved from Ohio to Pagosa Springs, based on a
"feeling" that I was supposed to be there. I met some
incredible people and started the nonprofit Southwest Light & Learning Center,
with big plans for holding classes and conferences. Then … out of the blue, I
met Doug, who had moved in across the street.
To make a long story short, Doug and I teamed up and decided to find a home
together. We moved to the Pacific Northwest after our homes were sold. There, we
continued our search for "home."
It was a frustrating search, and in the end (last summer), we gave up and
returned to Colorado. And since arriving here last October, we've still been
searching. I was beginning to believe it just wasn't meant to be. I began to
question if I should stay in the relationship. I wanted to be closer to my kids
and, even though we hoped we could find something affordable in the Durango
area, it was looking grim. Unfortunately, Doug did not think he'd like moving to
Delta County, where I lived from 1987-2006.
Rather than go into all the details, I’ll explain:
I had decided to start looking on my own, even though the thought of being alone
again was not only scary, but heartbreaking as well. Then, in March, Doug and I
decided to take a trip to the Western Slope and check out Ridgway and Cedaredge.
Doug thought he might like living in Ridgway, which is breathtakingly beautiful.
I agreed to have a look, even though I had this strong pull to go to Cedaredge.
Over the years I have become somewhat of an expert researching real estate on
line, and I was doubtful that we’d find anything in Ridgway that we could afford
… but we went because I wanted to scratch it off the list, so to speak. Plus, a
manufactured home had come on the market that was actually affordable, so we
made a point to check it out.
We got to Ridgway and saw the house that evening with a real estate agent. The
place reeked. It was far from what we hoped it would be, plus it was in town and
not where we wanted to live.
The next morning, we drove around on the mesa above Ridgway. Log Hill Village
was a wonderful surprise to us. Absolutely gorgeous properties with plenty of
Ponderosa pines, junipers and outrageous mountain views of the San Juan
mountains. We came across a home for sale by owner and contacted the owner, who
was in Florida, and she immediately called a neighbor who could show us the
house.
We actually liked the house, but the price was too high, and we also learned the
altitude was 8,000 feet. We were also informed that this was the last house in
the area to still be under the $400K price range. At that point, we realized we
couldn't afford to live there.
Wednesday afternoon we drove to Cedaredge. We drove up on the Grand Mesa, the
world's largest flat-top mountain, 40 miles long, and beautiful. Of course I
knew about the Grand Mesa and had been up there many times, both winter and
summer, but Doug was seeing it for the first time … and the views were
phenomenal, especially as we drove back down toward town.
We stayed at the Cedar Lodge and things were kind of glum that first night. Both
of us were feeling kind of let down, and I was certain this trip was a waste of
everybody's time, including Sheila, our real estate agent who had several
properties to show us the next day. That evening I was convinced I would be
moving to Cedaredge by myself.
That night I had indigestion from our late dinner at the local steakhouse and I
could not sleep for four hours. Things were going through my mind, and I kept
praying and asking for the Most Benevolent Outcome … no matter what would happen
on Thursday.
Morning dawned bright and sunny, and Sheila arrived at the appointed time to
take us to see properties in our price range. Most of them were beautiful places
and there were three of them, in particular, that Doug and I liked enough to
consider buying. I was floored! What! He liked them? Our favorite place was the
second one we looked at, but at the time I thought, this is a shame … it's also
the most expensive place Sheila showed us.
When we returned to Bayfield on Friday night, I felt as if some kind of shift
had occurred, but I couldn't put my finger on it. For one thing, I realized that
Doug and I had really enjoyed our trip and I felt calm and "settled," something
I hadn't felt in a long time. I kept thinking of the home we liked best -- that
second place (a mini-farm), and as I drifted off to sleep that night, my focus
was on how much I really wanted to live there.
A short while after I fell asleep, listening to
one of my favorite CDs, I suddenly awoke to a really sweet new age melody, and
as my eyes flew open, I heard more than just the beautiful music playing. There
was a message in Max Highstein's song … a sort of "calling," and I heard the
notes speak clearly in my mind: "Cedaredge … is … my home …" while images
of the property played like scenes in my head. That's when I knew. I KNEW! There
had been a definite shift. "Sunny Brook" was our destiny.
Now, it wasn't as easy as just realizing we both
wanted that home. There was the little matter of paying for it, but we
both decided it was worth getting in the ring and making an offer. On Tuesday
morning we contacted Sheila and gave a verbal offer, much lower than the asking
price, of course. The game continued throughout the day … the owner not willing
to come down, but leaving a crack of opportunity for us to bid again. By the end
of the day, he had accepted our final offer!
I also was getting synchronicities when I saw the
word "Brook" a number of times throughout the week. This was Spirit's way of
confirming that I am on the right track with this decision. So far, we are
heading in the direction of owning a home together, which was our dream, and in
a beautiful place where I will be closer to my sons and their families.
I believe the solar eclipse had something to do
with all of this.That night in the motel room, when I couldn't sleep, it was
like a "dark night of the soul" for me, believing my relationship was going to
dissolve, fearing the future, but most of all feeling the pain of separation and
realizing that it is better to seek the Most Benevolent Outcome rather
than instant gratification due to stress and disappointment.
I believe God and my spirit guides always help me
in making life decisions.
With the help of the eclipse and the Light that
is pouring upon our planet right now, we can manifest our dreams by focusing on
what it is that matters most to us and pouring emotion and love into that idea.
This was nothing short of a miracle.
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