Mood:
brightTopic: Temporary Retirement
For months I looked forward to this time when I no longer had to work and would have plenty of time to do all those things I longed to do, mostly to stay at home and write... putter around the house with various projects... and go for those nature walks with the dog.
It has been more than a month now since we moved into our new home in Ohio, and now that we are settled, I am feeling a bit disconnected from the rest of the world... the work world, that is. Why can't I just relax and enjoy it? Because I'm used to being productive and a multi tasker.
The "vacation" has been nice, but I am naturally a driven individual who needs motivation and tasks to perform to feel valued. Suddenly I'm in this situation where I have skills I am not utilizing, and I miss the contact in everyday life with the public and close friends.
Of course, there's this blog. I could commit to doing it on a daily basis instead of every couple of months... and the Web site always could use some revamping. There's my writing... I'm currently keying in an old manuscript that I've decided to re-work. There are several other projects of the fiction kind awaiting my attention.
My reading pile actually disappears! I never used to have time to read all the stuff that came to me, and now... I even take time to sit down and do nothing but read. So, time to get out some book reviews for the Beacon.
Part of this restlessness, I'm sure, is due to Winter's End. It's still too cold to get out and work outside. There will be plenty of grass to mow here in Ohio, where that task was not a priority in Colorado. And we can even plant a garden here and have things actually grow!
I am eager for the songbirds to arrive. The loyal cardinal has been serenading us already, along with the song sparrow. I spend time listening to my bird tapes, sharpening up my ears after these neglected years away from the Eastern deciduous forests.
"Get over it, girl," I tell myself. You're living the lifestyle you always wanted to live... staying at home, doing what your heart desires, being CREATIVE. Hubby wants me here and is grateful for my companionship and care. So I'll work at getting used to it... even though I know it is temporary. I feel it in my bones. I'm not old enough, and I haven't done enough yet in the world to be... RETIRED.
Let's call it instead a SABBATICAL. Time out. That's better... the gift of time in which to concentrate on my more creative attributes. In an hour I'll put on the Jazzercise video. After that, lunch, then a half hour with a good book. Maybe after that I'll play the piano for an hour... then back to the computer for a typing session.
One thing I can count on: Things always change. So I might as well enjoy it while I have it.
